Jealousy: A Memoir

An obsessive, propulsive memoir tracing jealousy's arc through a relationship and investigating our darkest emotional impulses throughout the history of art, myth, photographic technology, and perception Where does jealousy begin? With the gods? At birth; in childhood? Or in the moment a dating app match lights up a phone? Jealousy recounts a relationship across familiar milestones—first dates, growing intimacy, sexual frenzy, turmoil and conflict, and finally marriage and childbirth. But it is also a story of unraveling. When, in the early stages of courtship, Sarah Haas inevitably discovers a former partner in an old Instagram post, she becomes consumed. She stalks and she spirals, her ever-shapeshifting obsession assuming the forms of imitation, anger, violent ideation, shame, and insatiable desire. Her jealousy forces her to confront the profane and forbidden emotions coursing through her, and examine the way they manifest in the world around her, too—in Las Vegas hotels, abandoned malls, selfies, iPhone haptics, and mass shootings.